And, pretty much as expected, she's not crazy on the idea of the CB-3000. But neither is she upset about it. She has agreed that we could possibly use it in the Femdom sessions, which is what I expected really and to be honest I'm happy with that. At the end of the day I am happy to do whatever Mistress R wants me to do, and who knows maybe once she's seen it on she might decide she likes it more than she thought. At least I have a usable one now and occasional use is a possibility.
Just had Mistress R read through the 3,500 words I've added to my book in the last few days and she's still impressed! I'm pleased because I'm currently writing a tricky, pivotal scene, so it's good to know that I'm still pointing in the right direction.
Mmm, Mistress R just allowed me to worship her feet for about ten minutes. It was so lovely!
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Showing posts with label Mistress R. Show all posts
Saturday, 4 June 2011
Another O for Mistress R...
What a lovely way to spend Saturday morning, between Mistress R's gorgeous, smooth, sexy thighs, bringing her to a lovely hard orgasm. And a nice mixture of soft and firm strokes for me too... but no orgasm, of course. Unfortunately, due to our busy morning I haven't had time to show her my post from last night / this morning yet...and now she's gone off to have her hair done for a couple of hours.
Of course posting my thoughts to the blog last night probably wasn't the best way to do things, but I really wanted to get my thoughts down so that Mistress R could read them, as I'm sure I wouldn't have been able to verbalize them as well. It was unfortunate that by the time I had finished writing them it was past one in the morning and Mistress R was fast asleep, and because of our busy morning today she still hasn't yet read them...
I had already spent 24 hours trying to decide what the best way to tell Mistress R about the new CB-3000 was, without any clear decision being obvious. I wondered whether to put it on just before going to bed and letting her 'find' it, but decided against this in the end.
I would have loved to have told her when she came home on Thursday, but she had been drinking and it just didn't feel right, and of course the longer you wait the more difficult it is. I am also concerned that Mistress R might feel 'pressured', that she might think I want to wear it all the time, etc etc. That really isn't the case, especially now I've tried it on again. I'm not saying that I wouldn't wear it if she wanted me too, because I would, but it wouldn't be as simple as her locking it on and letting me get on with it.
So once again I feel like I am taking a big risk, by bringing this up again, but the last six months have been so incredible that I feel like sometimes you have to take big risks to get big rewards.
Of course posting my thoughts to the blog last night probably wasn't the best way to do things, but I really wanted to get my thoughts down so that Mistress R could read them, as I'm sure I wouldn't have been able to verbalize them as well. It was unfortunate that by the time I had finished writing them it was past one in the morning and Mistress R was fast asleep, and because of our busy morning today she still hasn't yet read them...
I had already spent 24 hours trying to decide what the best way to tell Mistress R about the new CB-3000 was, without any clear decision being obvious. I wondered whether to put it on just before going to bed and letting her 'find' it, but decided against this in the end.
I would have loved to have told her when she came home on Thursday, but she had been drinking and it just didn't feel right, and of course the longer you wait the more difficult it is. I am also concerned that Mistress R might feel 'pressured', that she might think I want to wear it all the time, etc etc. That really isn't the case, especially now I've tried it on again. I'm not saying that I wouldn't wear it if she wanted me too, because I would, but it wouldn't be as simple as her locking it on and letting me get on with it.
So once again I feel like I am taking a big risk, by bringing this up again, but the last six months have been so incredible that I feel like sometimes you have to take big risks to get big rewards.
Friday, 3 June 2011
The CB-3000, a second chance...
Those of you who have read a lot of this blog will have noticed that from time to time I have made various disparaging remarks about the CB-3000. I bought my first one (a clear one) about six months ago now, and right from the moment I got it I thought, this is never going to work. The tube was too small for my cock, the rings were too tight, and when I did manage to get it on it stuck out a mile, there was no way it was ever going to be worn under clothes. Rather disappointed, and it must be said, annoyed, I sold it on within a few weeks (and actually made a profit on it!).
Naturally, chastity being a big interest of mine, I visit a number of sites where people talk about their chastity devices, and sure enough this always makes me gnash my teeth as I remember the frustration of trying to get that stupid thing on. See, although I know selling it was the best thing to do, not least because it was a bit of a cheap crappy one, I can't help but still want one. I want to know what it feels like to be physically unable to touch your cock and to be totally at your Mistress's mercy, I really do.
And so it was with crushing inevitability that a few weeks ago, late one night I purchased another one, still a CB-3000 but a black one this time. It was a different design to the first one, with a pivoted rather than solid ring and the seam running round the edge of the tube rather than top and bottom. I didn't tell Mistress R at the time because she knew why I had sold the other one and so she was bound to say 'what's the point' you've already tried it.
But I just had a feeling that it had to be me, because I've never seen anyone else complain about the rings or the tube being too small, and it's not like I'm hung like a donkey or anything (well, maybe a small donkey... no, not really). Sure they complain about them breaking (especially the top and bottom seam ones) and chafing and other things, but not about them being too small. So I was determined to try again. Also since I had sold mine I had read that you need to use lube to get the tube on, which I had never tried, so I thought, fuck it, I've got to try this again and if it still doesn't work then I'll give up.
So a few days later it arrived and what do you know, I couldn't get it on. Right, I thought, perhaps it's because of my weight, I'll keep this one and try it again when I've lost some weight. This was a couple of weeks ago...
So last night Mistress R went to visit her friend and I was left alone for the evening, ostensibly to write my book (which I did manage to do - 2,300 words in fact), but as I had this free time to myself I thought, why not have a proper go and see if you can get it on or not. So I dug it out and after a while I managed to get the largest ring to close and quickly secured it with the pin. So far so good. Then I squirted some lube on my cock and after a bit of wincing and manipulation, I managed to get the tube on and quickly locked the padlock to hold it on.
Of course I then realised that I'd used the longest pin and it was too long, so I took it off again, swapped it for the shortest pin and put it all back again. Of course I forgot the spacers and now it was a little too close (should have used the medium pin), but it was on and I thought, okay let's try this for a few minutes.
It certainly fits much better than the first one, and once it's on it's not uncomfortable, in fact I can quite understand a comment I read the other day (can't remember where, sorry) about feeling safe in it and missing it when it's not there. It sits better and definitely hangs closer to the body than the other one did, and when I've lost some weight I could maybe picture it fitting under clothes.
My next thought of course was, I wonder what it feels like when you try to get hard? So I looked at some porn on the internet and my cock started to harden a bit (trying to get hard without being able to touch your cock, not as easy as you might think...) and basically what happens is that rather than swelling inside the tube (which is how they break) it pushed the tube forward, which in turn pulled the base ring forward and started to cause some discomfort to my balls. This was not entirely unexpected as I've heard other people say that this is what happens to them.
After this I decided to take it off and put it away, but not before I noted just how much different it is being actually physically unable to touch your cock, rather than it just not being allowed. Suddenly my appreciation for the experience of chastity belt wearers has just gone off the chart. I only had it on for maybe ten minutes, and my mind was totally overwhelmed by the thought of not being able to touch my cock at all for days or weeks, the sense of frustration must be so many times more intense, and it is at once terrifying and enormously appealing. I can't imagine how grateful I would be to be released and stroked after wearing this for a while, I think I would quickly submit to just about anything, which again is terrifying and enormously appealing all at once.
And of course I haven't actually tried it with what I think is the correct pin in yet, or the Kali's teeth which came with it, and as it stands I know my balls are probably too tight to wear it for any length of time (hence why I have just spent the last 20 minutes in the Oxballs Cocksling and am now just putting it back on again for another 20 minutes) but, there is hope, because now I know I can get it on and that it is quite comfortable.
But still I'm not entirely convinced, I don't quite see how hygiene is going to be maintained, unless the thing is taken off for showering every day and I'm not at all sure about peeing with this thing on, though other people must manage.. and yet the psychological pull of being completely at Mistress R's mercy is so strong and persuasive.
What would perhaps be realistic in the short term would perhaps be for Mistress R to have me wear it at the start of our Femdom sessions, so that she gets to 'unlock' me, even if it's only actually been on for a few minutes (it could be a bit longer I suppose, depending on how long she makes me wait during the session). At least it would be a symbolic act if nothing else. Or maybe she might have me wear it while I'm going down on her sometimes, never sure whether she will release me for teasing or not... (I like that idea a lot!).
And of course, maybe Mistress might want to lock me up on certain occasions, like perhaps when she goes to see her friend and leaves me alone for the evening... because once I'd taken it off I'm sure you can guess what happened next. Oh yes, and rest assured I'm going to be punished for those edges soon enough...
Naturally, chastity being a big interest of mine, I visit a number of sites where people talk about their chastity devices, and sure enough this always makes me gnash my teeth as I remember the frustration of trying to get that stupid thing on. See, although I know selling it was the best thing to do, not least because it was a bit of a cheap crappy one, I can't help but still want one. I want to know what it feels like to be physically unable to touch your cock and to be totally at your Mistress's mercy, I really do.
And so it was with crushing inevitability that a few weeks ago, late one night I purchased another one, still a CB-3000 but a black one this time. It was a different design to the first one, with a pivoted rather than solid ring and the seam running round the edge of the tube rather than top and bottom. I didn't tell Mistress R at the time because she knew why I had sold the other one and so she was bound to say 'what's the point' you've already tried it.
But I just had a feeling that it had to be me, because I've never seen anyone else complain about the rings or the tube being too small, and it's not like I'm hung like a donkey or anything (well, maybe a small donkey... no, not really). Sure they complain about them breaking (especially the top and bottom seam ones) and chafing and other things, but not about them being too small. So I was determined to try again. Also since I had sold mine I had read that you need to use lube to get the tube on, which I had never tried, so I thought, fuck it, I've got to try this again and if it still doesn't work then I'll give up.
So a few days later it arrived and what do you know, I couldn't get it on. Right, I thought, perhaps it's because of my weight, I'll keep this one and try it again when I've lost some weight. This was a couple of weeks ago...
So last night Mistress R went to visit her friend and I was left alone for the evening, ostensibly to write my book (which I did manage to do - 2,300 words in fact), but as I had this free time to myself I thought, why not have a proper go and see if you can get it on or not. So I dug it out and after a while I managed to get the largest ring to close and quickly secured it with the pin. So far so good. Then I squirted some lube on my cock and after a bit of wincing and manipulation, I managed to get the tube on and quickly locked the padlock to hold it on.
Of course I then realised that I'd used the longest pin and it was too long, so I took it off again, swapped it for the shortest pin and put it all back again. Of course I forgot the spacers and now it was a little too close (should have used the medium pin), but it was on and I thought, okay let's try this for a few minutes.
It certainly fits much better than the first one, and once it's on it's not uncomfortable, in fact I can quite understand a comment I read the other day (can't remember where, sorry) about feeling safe in it and missing it when it's not there. It sits better and definitely hangs closer to the body than the other one did, and when I've lost some weight I could maybe picture it fitting under clothes.
My next thought of course was, I wonder what it feels like when you try to get hard? So I looked at some porn on the internet and my cock started to harden a bit (trying to get hard without being able to touch your cock, not as easy as you might think...) and basically what happens is that rather than swelling inside the tube (which is how they break) it pushed the tube forward, which in turn pulled the base ring forward and started to cause some discomfort to my balls. This was not entirely unexpected as I've heard other people say that this is what happens to them.
After this I decided to take it off and put it away, but not before I noted just how much different it is being actually physically unable to touch your cock, rather than it just not being allowed. Suddenly my appreciation for the experience of chastity belt wearers has just gone off the chart. I only had it on for maybe ten minutes, and my mind was totally overwhelmed by the thought of not being able to touch my cock at all for days or weeks, the sense of frustration must be so many times more intense, and it is at once terrifying and enormously appealing. I can't imagine how grateful I would be to be released and stroked after wearing this for a while, I think I would quickly submit to just about anything, which again is terrifying and enormously appealing all at once.
And of course I haven't actually tried it with what I think is the correct pin in yet, or the Kali's teeth which came with it, and as it stands I know my balls are probably too tight to wear it for any length of time (hence why I have just spent the last 20 minutes in the Oxballs Cocksling and am now just putting it back on again for another 20 minutes) but, there is hope, because now I know I can get it on and that it is quite comfortable.
But still I'm not entirely convinced, I don't quite see how hygiene is going to be maintained, unless the thing is taken off for showering every day and I'm not at all sure about peeing with this thing on, though other people must manage.. and yet the psychological pull of being completely at Mistress R's mercy is so strong and persuasive.
What would perhaps be realistic in the short term would perhaps be for Mistress R to have me wear it at the start of our Femdom sessions, so that she gets to 'unlock' me, even if it's only actually been on for a few minutes (it could be a bit longer I suppose, depending on how long she makes me wait during the session). At least it would be a symbolic act if nothing else. Or maybe she might have me wear it while I'm going down on her sometimes, never sure whether she will release me for teasing or not... (I like that idea a lot!).
And of course, maybe Mistress might want to lock me up on certain occasions, like perhaps when she goes to see her friend and leaves me alone for the evening... because once I'd taken it off I'm sure you can guess what happened next. Oh yes, and rest assured I'm going to be punished for those edges soon enough...
Wednesday, 1 June 2011
The cocksling in action...
So I printed the days ramblings out for Mistress R earlier, and she said 'there's not much about me is there?'. So in order to rectify that situation...
Mmm, sitting here typing I can still taste and smell Mistress R's divine pussy... Mistress R allowed me to go down on her once again tonight, that's the third time in five days (I'm loving this!), and once again it was a very satisfying experience for us both!
Not only that, but after I had made her cum I slipped the Oxballs Cocksling on (so quick and easy). I don't think Mistress R had seen it on me before but she soon had me hard and ready for whatever she wanted to do with me. Initially she was going to ride my cock (oh yes!) but then she decided that she wanted me to go on top, which to be honest, was a little daunting as we haven't done that for at least two months and probably more like three... in fact I can't even remember when it was!
It felt a little strange being on top again, but I soon got into it and we had a lovely slow ride until I started to feel like I was getting a little too close for comfort. What I love the most about being on top is that I can worship Mistress R's feet while savouring every single mindblowing stroke in and out of her wonderful pussy. I have a massive thing about Mistress R's feet ( in case you haven't noticed), they really are absolutely beautiful and I love to kiss them and suck her gorgeous toes. I can't do that when she's on top. But then again having her on top massively appeals to my submissive nature and makes it easier to stay in control, so there's pro's and con's to both.
Anyway the most rewarding thing was that Mistress looked so happy having me make love to her so slowly and gently and I loved it too, I really did. But the time came when I was getting too close and I had to stop. So I waited a short time with my cock buried deep inside her, wallowing in the pleasure of having my cock caressed by her velvet pussy. And then I felt like I could carry on, but for some reason Mistress decided that she'd had enough and pushed me out. As I leaned back my cock was deep red, rock hard and glistening with her juices, I couldn't quite believe it, after all those weeks...
We lay down together, me still throbbing hard and I begged her to touch my cock again (damn, I used one of my three chances - I only came four days ago!) which she did, giving me a three minute ration. Well, I was in Heaven as she stroked my cock and squeezed my balls (I did ask for that and it was lovely, especially with them presented so nicely by the cocksling, but she could have squeezed them a lot harder, I did encourage her a bit but I didn't want to be too pushy - her nails on my cock got my attention though), and even though she sped up her strokes quite a bit towards the end I had it well under control and there was no need to ask her to stop (phew!)...
Well, that was my evening, Mistress is off round her friend's house tomorrow (female!) so I will be writing my book and trying not to touch my cock. Can't wait until Friday or Saturday or whenever Mistress decides she wants me again... (sigh).
Mmm, sitting here typing I can still taste and smell Mistress R's divine pussy... Mistress R allowed me to go down on her once again tonight, that's the third time in five days (I'm loving this!), and once again it was a very satisfying experience for us both!
Not only that, but after I had made her cum I slipped the Oxballs Cocksling on (so quick and easy). I don't think Mistress R had seen it on me before but she soon had me hard and ready for whatever she wanted to do with me. Initially she was going to ride my cock (oh yes!) but then she decided that she wanted me to go on top, which to be honest, was a little daunting as we haven't done that for at least two months and probably more like three... in fact I can't even remember when it was!
It felt a little strange being on top again, but I soon got into it and we had a lovely slow ride until I started to feel like I was getting a little too close for comfort. What I love the most about being on top is that I can worship Mistress R's feet while savouring every single mindblowing stroke in and out of her wonderful pussy. I have a massive thing about Mistress R's feet ( in case you haven't noticed), they really are absolutely beautiful and I love to kiss them and suck her gorgeous toes. I can't do that when she's on top. But then again having her on top massively appeals to my submissive nature and makes it easier to stay in control, so there's pro's and con's to both.
Anyway the most rewarding thing was that Mistress looked so happy having me make love to her so slowly and gently and I loved it too, I really did. But the time came when I was getting too close and I had to stop. So I waited a short time with my cock buried deep inside her, wallowing in the pleasure of having my cock caressed by her velvet pussy. And then I felt like I could carry on, but for some reason Mistress decided that she'd had enough and pushed me out. As I leaned back my cock was deep red, rock hard and glistening with her juices, I couldn't quite believe it, after all those weeks...
We lay down together, me still throbbing hard and I begged her to touch my cock again (damn, I used one of my three chances - I only came four days ago!) which she did, giving me a three minute ration. Well, I was in Heaven as she stroked my cock and squeezed my balls (I did ask for that and it was lovely, especially with them presented so nicely by the cocksling, but she could have squeezed them a lot harder, I did encourage her a bit but I didn't want to be too pushy - her nails on my cock got my attention though), and even though she sped up her strokes quite a bit towards the end I had it well under control and there was no need to ask her to stop (phew!)...
Well, that was my evening, Mistress is off round her friend's house tomorrow (female!) so I will be writing my book and trying not to touch my cock. Can't wait until Friday or Saturday or whenever Mistress decides she wants me again... (sigh).
Don't ask me, tell me...
One thing which really struck a chord on that Cage-Chronicles site was when Rich posted how Mel had asked him if he wanted to do something and he commented on how much hotter he would find it if she just 'ordered' him to do whatever it was instead.
I couldn't agree more, and indeed, when I said the other day that Mistress R allowed me to worship her feet and her pussy, the thing that made it super-hot (apart from the fact that she let me cum inside her afterwards!) was that when I first came into the bedroom and found her lying naked and gorgeous on the bed, she didn't actually even say anything, she just pointed her feet at me and I knew what she wanted me to do. And when she'd had enough she simply pulled them away and said to me, "Go down on me now."
Critically not, "Please go down on me now," or "Would you like to go down on me now?" just "Go down on me now," which was quite plainly an 'instruction' if not quite an 'order'.
Sure we had discussed earlier in the day me being allowed to worship her feet, and of course Mistress R knows damn well that I would never refuse the opportunity to worship her feet, her pussy, or any other part of her body, EVER! So asking me 'if I want to' is kind of a dumb question, but all the same I loved the choice of words and the way she said it. It was truly awesome, and, I hope, a sign of things to come... (fingers crossed).
I couldn't agree more, and indeed, when I said the other day that Mistress R allowed me to worship her feet and her pussy, the thing that made it super-hot (apart from the fact that she let me cum inside her afterwards!) was that when I first came into the bedroom and found her lying naked and gorgeous on the bed, she didn't actually even say anything, she just pointed her feet at me and I knew what she wanted me to do. And when she'd had enough she simply pulled them away and said to me, "Go down on me now."
Critically not, "Please go down on me now," or "Would you like to go down on me now?" just "Go down on me now," which was quite plainly an 'instruction' if not quite an 'order'.
Sure we had discussed earlier in the day me being allowed to worship her feet, and of course Mistress R knows damn well that I would never refuse the opportunity to worship her feet, her pussy, or any other part of her body, EVER! So asking me 'if I want to' is kind of a dumb question, but all the same I loved the choice of words and the way she said it. It was truly awesome, and, I hope, a sign of things to come... (fingers crossed).
The latest addition to my blogroll...
Just been reading a very nice site called Cagechronicles, which follows the life of a submissive male called Rich and his fiance Mel. Some very hot entries there, which I'm sure will make you both envy him and thank your lucky stars that you aren't him, all at the same time! You can find this site in my blogroll and also here.
Monday, 30 May 2011
Confession time again...
Yesterday Mistress R allowed me the pleasure of going down on her once more, I didn't think it was going to work as it seemed to be taking a bit longer than usual (not that I'm complaining you understand), but in the end Mistress had a really strong orgasm which made me so very happy. Afterwards I had to confess my sins and received eleven stingy slaps with the paddle, well actually only about four of them actual stung, but they were stingy enough! Not really convinced they are going to stop me touching my cock this week though, but I must try... At least the ratio of 3:1 is being maintained, if nothing else.
Have written quite a big chunk of my book now, 14000 words so far, so I'm just over a quarter of the way through. Seems to be going pretty well so far, and Mistress R is certainly enjoying reading it.
Kayla from Eden Fantasys was surprisingly cool about the review I posted over the weekend, so it looks like I will be getting another toy after all!
Have written quite a big chunk of my book now, 14000 words so far, so I'm just over a quarter of the way through. Seems to be going pretty well so far, and Mistress R is certainly enjoying reading it.
Kayla from Eden Fantasys was surprisingly cool about the review I posted over the weekend, so it looks like I will be getting another toy after all!
Saturday, 28 May 2011
An unexpected treat...
After waking up feeling pretty crappy again, this afternoon took an upward turn as Mistress R had me worship her freshly manicured feet, and then allowed me to go down on her (which I'm pleased to say resulted in a pretty big orgasm for her!). Following this she started teasing me and once she had me nice and hard she decided she wanted to have me inside her. Not long after she mounted my cock she told me she wanted to feel me cum inside her and soon (a bit sooner than I'd ideally have liked it must be said) I was giving her almost a weeks worth of cum, after which we cuddled and kissed passionately as we lay in bed for a while. When she got up I leaned over the bed and ran my tongue up and down her pussy, tasting my cum on her, which reminded her that she had forgotten to give me my cream pie... oh well, can't win 'em all!
Later we were on our way to eat at a local pub and we talked about how amazingly close we have been since we started on the full chastity/control on April 1st. To any woman reading this, if your man wants you to try chastity I can only say, please give it a try. If my experience is anything to go by it will benefit your relationship enormously. Mistress R and I have been so close since we really started doing this a bit more seriously and today has been absolutely amazing as we have really been like teenagers all over again. It's a wonderful feeling, and I just cannot keep my hands off her beautiful body today.
I'm particularly pleased to be able to make such a positive post after the whole cuckolding thing... if you read my last comment you will see that I have made some attempt to explain my negativity and also apologise somewhat to our cuckold friend...
Later we were on our way to eat at a local pub and we talked about how amazingly close we have been since we started on the full chastity/control on April 1st. To any woman reading this, if your man wants you to try chastity I can only say, please give it a try. If my experience is anything to go by it will benefit your relationship enormously. Mistress R and I have been so close since we really started doing this a bit more seriously and today has been absolutely amazing as we have really been like teenagers all over again. It's a wonderful feeling, and I just cannot keep my hands off her beautiful body today.
I'm particularly pleased to be able to make such a positive post after the whole cuckolding thing... if you read my last comment you will see that I have made some attempt to explain my negativity and also apologise somewhat to our cuckold friend...
Friday, 27 May 2011
The Oxballs cocksling and a new site...
I was just browsing 'Keyheld' when I came across a site I've never visited before, it's called Mistress 160's Abode and while it is more a BDSM type site, it's definitely worth a visit. There's a lengthy piece about the Oxballs Cocksling (which quotes my site, so they've obviously got good taste - haha!) which is quite interesting. Seems their initial reaction to opening the box was much the same as mine, i.e.: 'that's going to be too big to grip properly', but like me, in use they found that wasn't the case, at least for slave Sol's balls.
Mistress 160 writes that slave Sol's cock wasn't quite big enough for the cocksling to assist an erection, but it wasn't far off and he was still quite happy with the sensation it produced. She also had him wear it overnight which tells me that his balls must be a lot looser than mine, because I can't wear it for more than 20 minutes at a time. However, I am working on that, because it does feel very nice and I would like to be able to wear it for longer periods (if for no other reason than that hopefully one day my nuts will be stretched enough to facilitate the wearing of a chastity device, perhaps...).
Anyway, another comment that Mistress 160 made was that when Sol was allowed to cum wearing the cocksling he said his orgasm felt kind of 'cut-off', but that it seemed to last a long time. I presume he is referring to the sensation you get when a cock-ring limits the speed at which you can ejaculate. This I find quite interesting actually, as if he claims the cocksling is a little too big to grip his cock properly, then I'm interested to know what it would feel like for me as I find the cocksling quite tight.
With that in mind I could definitely see this toy being useful for Mistress R if she wanted to let me 'ejaculate' without letting me enjoy the 'relief' of orgasm in the future, as I know that even a thin cock-ring does distort the sensation somewhat (making it 'fuzzy' at best) and this being so much tighter and thicker this should do an even better job (or worse, depending on your perspective!). Of course I can't tell you this for definite as I am not in a position to test it, what with the whole 'no touching and definitely no cumming' rule, unless perhaps Mistress R might allow me to test this at some point.
Going back to Mistress 160's Abode for a moment, there's some great posts on there and I must say I do envy Sol a little when I see the photo's of his ball-parachute being stacked with weights like that, as it must feel pretty amazing. On the other hand I know exactly what having muscle relaxant rubbed on your balls feels like and having to endure that while tied down and Queened is, well... actually probably a lot more enjoyable than some of the other things Mistress 160 seems to like to do to him!
Anyway, why don't you check out the site for yourself here.
Mistress 160 writes that slave Sol's cock wasn't quite big enough for the cocksling to assist an erection, but it wasn't far off and he was still quite happy with the sensation it produced. She also had him wear it overnight which tells me that his balls must be a lot looser than mine, because I can't wear it for more than 20 minutes at a time. However, I am working on that, because it does feel very nice and I would like to be able to wear it for longer periods (if for no other reason than that hopefully one day my nuts will be stretched enough to facilitate the wearing of a chastity device, perhaps...).
Anyway, another comment that Mistress 160 made was that when Sol was allowed to cum wearing the cocksling he said his orgasm felt kind of 'cut-off', but that it seemed to last a long time. I presume he is referring to the sensation you get when a cock-ring limits the speed at which you can ejaculate. This I find quite interesting actually, as if he claims the cocksling is a little too big to grip his cock properly, then I'm interested to know what it would feel like for me as I find the cocksling quite tight.
With that in mind I could definitely see this toy being useful for Mistress R if she wanted to let me 'ejaculate' without letting me enjoy the 'relief' of orgasm in the future, as I know that even a thin cock-ring does distort the sensation somewhat (making it 'fuzzy' at best) and this being so much tighter and thicker this should do an even better job (or worse, depending on your perspective!). Of course I can't tell you this for definite as I am not in a position to test it, what with the whole 'no touching and definitely no cumming' rule, unless perhaps Mistress R might allow me to test this at some point.
Going back to Mistress 160's Abode for a moment, there's some great posts on there and I must say I do envy Sol a little when I see the photo's of his ball-parachute being stacked with weights like that, as it must feel pretty amazing. On the other hand I know exactly what having muscle relaxant rubbed on your balls feels like and having to endure that while tied down and Queened is, well... actually probably a lot more enjoyable than some of the other things Mistress 160 seems to like to do to him!
Anyway, why don't you check out the site for yourself here.
Thursday, 26 May 2011
Waking up to Mistress R...
Sadly not in the flesh (she has to get up way before me), but on the walls in the bedroom. Still absolutely loving the canvasses, and definitely worth £160 for the 4 of them. I can't even remember when we first started talking about the idea of having canvasses done for the bedroom, but I know it's quite a while. We actually bought some black and white prints from Erotica in 2007 and framed them, but within a year they were wrinkly, which was annoying because they weren't at all cheap!
Once we had decided to get the canvasses done there was the small problem of taking the pictures. The PVC basque one was an old one that I managed to blow up without losing the quality and the others were all done very recently after about three or four attempts yielded nothing. I'm not going to pretend that those pictures look exactly the way they did when I'd taken them, but there hasn't been that much manipulation. Cropping, a little soft focus and black and white is about all really, fortunately I have a very gorgeous, Mistress which makes my job a LOT easier!
Once we had decided to get the canvasses done there was the small problem of taking the pictures. The PVC basque one was an old one that I managed to blow up without losing the quality and the others were all done very recently after about three or four attempts yielded nothing. I'm not going to pretend that those pictures look exactly the way they did when I'd taken them, but there hasn't been that much manipulation. Cropping, a little soft focus and black and white is about all really, fortunately I have a very gorgeous, Mistress which makes my job a LOT easier!
In the shadow of semi-permanent denial...
After reading The Naked Husband’s blog yesterday, I’m pondering the notion of permanent orgasm denial, or at least very restricted (ie: once or twice a year) release. Not that I’m suggesting that I am ready for that kind of denial, I mean I’ve only just hit twenty two days straight! But I must say the idea does have a certain appeal.
The thing is that when you are allowed to cum, the temporary intense pleasure is somewhat tempered by the knowledge that it will take at least a week to get back into that lovely denied headspace. And it is this frustration which seems to have prompted The Naked Husband and his wife to contemplate semi-permanent denial.
I can certainly understand why he would want to do it. I could even imagine that by the time he got the opportunity to cum he might even beg to be allowed not to! After all, the feelings that six or twelve months of delicious denial are likely to bring about are likely to be addictive and intense and going from that right back to square one would most likely seem like nothing less than a brutal punishment... on the other hand, maybe not. Maybe TNH will be begging for release and promising the earth if he can just be allowed to cum, just once. Please, oh God pleeeeease!!!!
Either way I'm sure he'll enjoy himself and I'm sure TNH's wife will too. I certainly look forward to following their blog and finding out. If you would like to read what TNH has to say about this you can read it here.
As I said, I can’t see it happening for me in the immediate future, but I certainly wouldn’t rule it out long term (if you’ll pardon the pun). Mistress R permitting of course.
The thing is that when you are allowed to cum, the temporary intense pleasure is somewhat tempered by the knowledge that it will take at least a week to get back into that lovely denied headspace. And it is this frustration which seems to have prompted The Naked Husband and his wife to contemplate semi-permanent denial.
I can certainly understand why he would want to do it. I could even imagine that by the time he got the opportunity to cum he might even beg to be allowed not to! After all, the feelings that six or twelve months of delicious denial are likely to bring about are likely to be addictive and intense and going from that right back to square one would most likely seem like nothing less than a brutal punishment... on the other hand, maybe not. Maybe TNH will be begging for release and promising the earth if he can just be allowed to cum, just once. Please, oh God pleeeeease!!!!
Either way I'm sure he'll enjoy himself and I'm sure TNH's wife will too. I certainly look forward to following their blog and finding out. If you would like to read what TNH has to say about this you can read it here.
As I said, I can’t see it happening for me in the immediate future, but I certainly wouldn’t rule it out long term (if you’ll pardon the pun). Mistress R permitting of course.
Wednesday, 25 May 2011
Another lovely orgasm tonight...
...for Mistress R, of course!
Unfortunately, our attempt to test the new toy from Eden Fantasys was... fairly unsuccessful. I will not comment on it further yet as Mistress R is contemplating the idea of allowing me to test it 'solo' (without cumming of course), which might alleviate some of the problems we encountered.
The Naked Husband has today written a blog post which asks the same 'real man' question that I posed earlier. I'm pleased to say that his wife confirmed to him that she considers him more of a man than ever, just as Mistress R has to me. So that's allright then. Panic over! You can read The Naked Husband's post here.
Unfortunately, our attempt to test the new toy from Eden Fantasys was... fairly unsuccessful. I will not comment on it further yet as Mistress R is contemplating the idea of allowing me to test it 'solo' (without cumming of course), which might alleviate some of the problems we encountered.
The Naked Husband has today written a blog post which asks the same 'real man' question that I posed earlier. I'm pleased to say that his wife confirmed to him that she considers him more of a man than ever, just as Mistress R has to me. So that's allright then. Panic over! You can read The Naked Husband's post here.
The pictures are up...
Finally, after God knows how long in the planning, the pictures are up and they look great!
Mistress R approves...
Mistress R read all of what I have written so far for my Femdom Cave book last night. Her response was overwhelming positive, and as she is someone who reads more books than anyone else I know, I am rather pleased.
I don't know if reading my words had anything to do with it, but no sooner were we in bed than Mistress R's fingers were stroking my cock and pretty soon I was hard and of course loving every second of it. She kept this up for a few minutes before letting me go, pulling me closer and kissing me while my rock-hard cock pressed against her thigh. 'That's all for tonight' she said softly before turning over and leaving me aching, throbbing and a little short of breath. God I love her so...
I'm off to pick up the rogue canvas in a little over an hour or so, lets hope they've got the bloody thing straight this time!
I don't know if reading my words had anything to do with it, but no sooner were we in bed than Mistress R's fingers were stroking my cock and pretty soon I was hard and of course loving every second of it. She kept this up for a few minutes before letting me go, pulling me closer and kissing me while my rock-hard cock pressed against her thigh. 'That's all for tonight' she said softly before turning over and leaving me aching, throbbing and a little short of breath. God I love her so...
I'm off to pick up the rogue canvas in a little over an hour or so, lets hope they've got the bloody thing straight this time!
New poll...
So, the cuckolding poll has finished and after a slightly surprising start things have worked out largely as expected. 53% of you (including me) think that cuckolding is a hot fantasy but not something they would want in real life, 29% of you would like another man to fuck your wife, 15% of you don't like the idea at all and just 1 person has actually experienced it. Phew!
Well time for a new poll then and one which was inspired by a post I saw on Bootblack's Oubliette (whatever that is). It might be a good idea to see the post so you know what I'm talking about here. I realise this might be a slightly contentious topic, and I'm hoping it might spark some good comments below.
So, do you think surrendering your orgasms to your 'keyholder' makes you less than a 'real' man?
Please vote in the poll, just below the blue 'Keyheld' banner.
I might ask Mistress R what she thinks of this later...
Well time for a new poll then and one which was inspired by a post I saw on Bootblack's Oubliette (whatever that is). It might be a good idea to see the post so you know what I'm talking about here. I realise this might be a slightly contentious topic, and I'm hoping it might spark some good comments below.
So, do you think surrendering your orgasms to your 'keyholder' makes you less than a 'real' man?
Please vote in the poll, just below the blue 'Keyheld' banner.
I might ask Mistress R what she thinks of this later...
Monday, 23 May 2011
Frustration...
Went to pick up the canvasses after work and they are pretty good, except... the picture with the key on the necklace, the frame isn't straight. I mean none of them are perfect, but that one is visibly wonky, so it's being done again and hopefully I will be able to get it tomorrow. Bloody annoying, but still....
And of course, when I went to pick them up the guy behind the counter insisted on getting each one of them out to show me, right in the middle of a busy supermarket. Thanks for that. And of course of all of those pictures it had to be that one that needed returning didn't it?
Incredible to think...
That in the last seven weeks I have only been allowed to cum inside Mistress's beautiful pussy once!
ONCE IN SEVEN WEEKS!
(And that was three weeks ago.)
Not that I'm complaining you understand, after all, this was what I wanted and still do want. It's just when you think about it like that, it brings it home to you just how much our lives have changed over the last couple of months. In fact, never mind cumming, in the last eight weeks I've only been allowed inside Mistress R three times, fairly briefly in the last two Femdom sessions and of course at the end of April (after which I was permitted to clean Mistress's beautiful pussy with my tongue)! Contrast that with our lives before the start of April 2011 and we were having penetrative sex probably once a week. It's a big change. The obvious question is of course 'Do I have any regrets'?
The answer is equally straightforward. No, I really don't. Sure sometimes I wish I was able to instigate penetration and cum inside Mistress R when I want to, of course I do. But the very fact that I can't means that when it does happen it's all the more pleasurable and exciting. In fact I would go as far as to say that the 'sex' we are enjoying now is much better overall than it was before, more relaxed, more exciting and more intimate in a way... it's just that the focus of it all has changed slightly and that penetrative sex has become the exception rather than the norm.
It also means that I know that when Mistress R initiates something, I know I don't have to worry whether or not she's really in the mood, which is a big plus for me. 'Initiation' can be a big sticking point in a marriage, and personally I've always believed that it's far better for the woman to decide as men are generally a lot more 'flexible' (let's say) about getting 'in the mood'.
The other thing which I have noticed in the last couple of months is how Mistress R's confidence is growing as she has come to realise just how much I worship and adore her. This also means that our Femdom sessions are getting even better too as she seems to be finding it easier to put aside some reservations that she might previously have had (you will remember the 'pegging' I commented on yesterday and she's also definitely less inclined to let me off eating all of my cum these days too). As someone who would love his Mistress to be a little bit more 'mean', 'bitchy' and 'selfish' (in the hot, 'Come here and eat my pussy NOW!' kind of way!) this is all to the good.
I can also say, as a man who is rather overweight, the wrong side of forty and who has some nerve damage following an operation, that not once in the last seven weeks have I had a problem getting hard. Which is something I'm sure we'd all agree is a very nice position to be in!
Of course, now that I've got myself into this somewhat enviable position, it's important to maintain it and ensure that it does not become a problem in itself. I feel that by Mistress R having control of everything this is least likely to happen, because she can ensure that she gets what she wants out of it too. That's why it's important that she gets to decide when I cum and when I am allowed inside her. You may remember I referred to a comment I read somewhere the other day where the male was arguing with his keyholder because she decided it was time for him to cum and he wanted to continue to be denied. That's exactly what I'm talking about. Now that woman is probably dead set against the whole thing and wishes it would just go away (and most likely is never going to come around to the idea, whatever he says).
My attitude is that I really want Mistress R to enjoy this too and by ensuring that she sees it in a positive light I think it will naturally continue and grow at it's own pace. I can't imagine that Mistress R would have thought twenty two days a reasonable amount of time to wait six months ago, and yet here we are. As ever it's patience which gets results. However, if you take the view that this is what you want and your other half is just going to have to get used to it, then I fear you a) won't enjoy it as much as you should, b) will find that your partner does everything they can to undermine it, and c) might end up causing a rift in your relationship that goes beyond sex.
As much as I love being under Mistress R's control, if she said to me 'I'm not enjoying this, I don't want to do it anymore', then as much as I would be disappointed, I know that I would rather have a happy wife than a unhappy keyholder. Similarly I'm sure it would be preferable to have a keyholder who enjoys keeping you denied for two weeks, rather than one who resents you staying chaste for ten.
After all, if she feels comfortable and happy with the situation, if she knows that she can get what she wants out of your chastity and that she has the power to bring it to it's conclusion without having to justify or explain herself to you, then surely she's in the best possible position to give you the longer periods of chastity and denial you crave eventually, isn't she?
Of course, as with anything, some people will find that their partners just flatly refuse to indulge them full stop. In which case you might decide that you need to weigh up the relationship as a whole and balance that against what YOU actually want out of YOUR life.
ONCE IN SEVEN WEEKS!
(And that was three weeks ago.)
Not that I'm complaining you understand, after all, this was what I wanted and still do want. It's just when you think about it like that, it brings it home to you just how much our lives have changed over the last couple of months. In fact, never mind cumming, in the last eight weeks I've only been allowed inside Mistress R three times, fairly briefly in the last two Femdom sessions and of course at the end of April (after which I was permitted to clean Mistress's beautiful pussy with my tongue)! Contrast that with our lives before the start of April 2011 and we were having penetrative sex probably once a week. It's a big change. The obvious question is of course 'Do I have any regrets'?
The answer is equally straightforward. No, I really don't. Sure sometimes I wish I was able to instigate penetration and cum inside Mistress R when I want to, of course I do. But the very fact that I can't means that when it does happen it's all the more pleasurable and exciting. In fact I would go as far as to say that the 'sex' we are enjoying now is much better overall than it was before, more relaxed, more exciting and more intimate in a way... it's just that the focus of it all has changed slightly and that penetrative sex has become the exception rather than the norm.
It also means that I know that when Mistress R initiates something, I know I don't have to worry whether or not she's really in the mood, which is a big plus for me. 'Initiation' can be a big sticking point in a marriage, and personally I've always believed that it's far better for the woman to decide as men are generally a lot more 'flexible' (let's say) about getting 'in the mood'.
The other thing which I have noticed in the last couple of months is how Mistress R's confidence is growing as she has come to realise just how much I worship and adore her. This also means that our Femdom sessions are getting even better too as she seems to be finding it easier to put aside some reservations that she might previously have had (you will remember the 'pegging' I commented on yesterday and she's also definitely less inclined to let me off eating all of my cum these days too). As someone who would love his Mistress to be a little bit more 'mean', 'bitchy' and 'selfish' (in the hot, 'Come here and eat my pussy NOW!' kind of way!) this is all to the good.
I can also say, as a man who is rather overweight, the wrong side of forty and who has some nerve damage following an operation, that not once in the last seven weeks have I had a problem getting hard. Which is something I'm sure we'd all agree is a very nice position to be in!
Of course, now that I've got myself into this somewhat enviable position, it's important to maintain it and ensure that it does not become a problem in itself. I feel that by Mistress R having control of everything this is least likely to happen, because she can ensure that she gets what she wants out of it too. That's why it's important that she gets to decide when I cum and when I am allowed inside her. You may remember I referred to a comment I read somewhere the other day where the male was arguing with his keyholder because she decided it was time for him to cum and he wanted to continue to be denied. That's exactly what I'm talking about. Now that woman is probably dead set against the whole thing and wishes it would just go away (and most likely is never going to come around to the idea, whatever he says).
My attitude is that I really want Mistress R to enjoy this too and by ensuring that she sees it in a positive light I think it will naturally continue and grow at it's own pace. I can't imagine that Mistress R would have thought twenty two days a reasonable amount of time to wait six months ago, and yet here we are. As ever it's patience which gets results. However, if you take the view that this is what you want and your other half is just going to have to get used to it, then I fear you a) won't enjoy it as much as you should, b) will find that your partner does everything they can to undermine it, and c) might end up causing a rift in your relationship that goes beyond sex.
As much as I love being under Mistress R's control, if she said to me 'I'm not enjoying this, I don't want to do it anymore', then as much as I would be disappointed, I know that I would rather have a happy wife than a unhappy keyholder. Similarly I'm sure it would be preferable to have a keyholder who enjoys keeping you denied for two weeks, rather than one who resents you staying chaste for ten.
After all, if she feels comfortable and happy with the situation, if she knows that she can get what she wants out of your chastity and that she has the power to bring it to it's conclusion without having to justify or explain herself to you, then surely she's in the best possible position to give you the longer periods of chastity and denial you crave eventually, isn't she?
Of course, as with anything, some people will find that their partners just flatly refuse to indulge them full stop. In which case you might decide that you need to weigh up the relationship as a whole and balance that against what YOU actually want out of YOUR life.
Something to look forward to...
Found some old stories that I wrote years ago for submission to Forum, just got to type them up as I only have hard copies. Will try and get at least one done by this afternoon.
Still not yet twenty four hours since Mistress R graciously allowed me to cum, but I already know that next month's Femdom session is two days closer than it would normally be as we are having it on a Friday instead of a Sunday. This of course means that a chastity period of more than 26 days is extremely unlikely, but also opens up the possibility of a 30 day stretch from Jun 17 - July 17. Unless Mistress R decides that in future our sessions don't guarantee me an orgasm of course...
Regardless, all this is mere supposition as I have no way of knowing when Mistress will next allow me to cum, it could be tonight, this Friday, next Wednesday, or not until June... maybe even July!
Maybe not until my birthday!!!
Still not yet twenty four hours since Mistress R graciously allowed me to cum, but I already know that next month's Femdom session is two days closer than it would normally be as we are having it on a Friday instead of a Sunday. This of course means that a chastity period of more than 26 days is extremely unlikely, but also opens up the possibility of a 30 day stretch from Jun 17 - July 17. Unless Mistress R decides that in future our sessions don't guarantee me an orgasm of course...
Regardless, all this is mere supposition as I have no way of knowing when Mistress will next allow me to cum, it could be tonight, this Friday, next Wednesday, or not until June... maybe even July!
Maybe not until my birthday!!!
Sunday, 22 May 2011
A bit of a vanity post, perhaps...
But for my own amusement I'd like to share these photo's I took of the magazines that my stories have been published in...
Yep, that's Mistress R in that magazine!
That's not Mistress R!
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